The name Malaika means Angel.
I'm no angel.
But I know how to fly.
People call me the most desirable woman of this country.
Perhaps they are right.
I've had many accidents in life.
The most recent one being a car accident.
Each accident taught me something or the other.
The last one taught me...
that I may be dying, suddenly.
That's when I realized, that if I don't die
then I'll start living again from today onwards.
They say I'm the most watched celebrity around.
I've been watched all my life.
But I feel, like I've never ever been heard.
I'm Malaika Arora.
And let's hear my story.
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We all know Malaika as being a very guarded person.
Now the fact is that, you know,
she wants to do this reality show.
I think it will be super interesting
to watch somebody as gorgeous as Malaika,
kind of open up.
I'm just really happy that she's putting herself out there
and doing this to begin with.
So, I want to congratulate her because it's not easy.
As a friend, I think she is rock solid, super hot,
and the original supermodel.
What's up, mom? I know you've started shooting.
And that's unbelievable because I didn't think that
you would see this through.
And I say this because you don't merge your
private life and your work life together.
And this show is about you and your personal life.
So, that's very brave of you.
And I'm really excited to see how it all turns out.
What they are saying about her every day
in the gossip columns and this and that, is not her.
We know the real Malaika.
She's either a judge, performer,
traveler or yoga...
This girl won't stop!
She's risky as a person,
but she's not very risk taking.
Malla, let your guard down, and just go for it.
And you have to be absolutely full of guts.
Because no guts no glory.
I expect her to really go out there and disrupt the content.
I think it's about time that she does that.
And I'm sure she's going to kick ass.
All the best, baby! I'm always cheering for you.
Casper, look here.
See.
Sanjay!
Yes, ma'am?
What happened? You're such a good boy. Feeling hungry?
Do we have Casper's treats at home?
No. I tried ordering them, but it didn't work.
So everything is over? - Yes.
Wait, dear. Come here.
I'll try it later.
No, no.
Why later? I'll go bring them now.
Come, Casper. Let's go.
You want treats?
Come on, let's go get you some treats. Come.
Come, my baby.
I landed up down, figured my driver is not there.
There was some issue.
Good morning, ma'am.
I hopped into the car,
which is probably for the first time since my accident.
I've not sat in the driver's seat ever since then.
So, yes. I think that's a fear that I really do want to overcome
on this journey of Moving in with Malaika.
Okay. This has been a while.
Okay. I have, kind of...
I sat in the driver's seat
thinking this is something I can do.
It's not a big deal, but
I was looking at it like I was sitting in a spaceship.
So, it was weird.
Coming face to face with it, I froze.
I completely froze.
My hands went cold.
My feet felt weird.
I couldn't tell which was the brake, which was the clutch.
I can't do this.
Forget it. I can't do this.
And I hopped out of it pretty fast.
Please park the car. Thank you. - Okay.
Bitch!
Oh! - Malla!
Bitch!
It's hot! - Thank you.
Come on, sit in my...
But you ask how I'm doing as well, - Sit on my couch.
not only the food.
But when I see the pressure cooker...
Then your pressure goes up!
Then my whistle blows
upon seeing the pressure cooker.
Your 'I said yes' post on social media...
After that, I received 100 messages.
I told them because I know you too well.
But they're like, 'Is she getting married?'
'Arjun never told us.'
I said,
'I know Malla too well. It's either for a show
or for something else.'
She won't post it on social media.
It's way too private.
When you are doing a reality show,
and when you let cameras in,
once you sign this deal with the devil,
people will want to know more about
things that have happened in her past,
her relationships, how she deals with issues.
Those things may break her.
People are very interested in wanting to know
her take on everything.
Whatever she does makes news.
Let's see if she lets her guard down.
She's a tough little girl.
Unfiltered.
Well, the show is going to be like that.
She will not go into areas which are not really
anybody's business but her own.
She's putting herself out there in front of all of you,
and I think that takes a lot of courage.
It takes a lot of inner strength
to be vulnerable, to be out there,
to go and fulfill her bucket list,
to show the different sides of her personality,
of her life, the people around her.
I'm really excited to see how it all pans out.
If I can give you a little bit of advice
is do it for yourself.
The entire world has their opinions,
and their judgments. - Farah...
Opinions and judgments, whether you do something
or don't do something, any which way you're going to be
perceived in a certain way.
I rather do it my way
and put it out there.
But how come Arhaan has agreed to this?
You know something?
He was the most supportive, Farah.
He said, 'Mom, go for it.'
That's so sweet. - Go for it!
Somewhere for me, I think, half the battle was won.
At the end of the day, he's a kid.
I should be able to do something
where he feels proud of what I'm doing,
that he feels comfortable with what I'm doing.
But when I asked him whether he'll be on the show,
he just looked at me and said, 'Mom...
My boy! Correct.
And what about the rest. Have you spoken to everyone else?
Everyone is very supportive.
Arjun is okay? - I think everyone...
Yeah, he was very supportive.
He gave lecture for one hour?
But it's not a lecture.
I mean, you know how he is.
Tomorrow you ask him
'What do you think of this script?'
He will give you a whole...
He'll strip it down. - Thesis.
Full thesis.
The pros, the cons, everything.
I think more than anything else, he just said,
'Just have a good time.'
I always like to have his opinion,
and his what he thinks
because he gives the most sound advice.
And that's purely because I think he's far more
wise and sensible than his years.
How many years since 'Chaiyya Chaiyya'? 25?
1998. - Eight.
24-25 years. Yeah.
We both have lasted longer than marriages.
Than most marriages...
Let's not say these things out loud.
But you've been part of my past, my present
and hopefully, my future. - Yeah.
I mean, I can't imagine any part of my life where you are
not there.
Marriage, children, everything. - Husband, marriage.
I've danced your wedding.
I've danced at your wedding. - Yeah!
I've seen you fall down.
But I have done that many times.
I thought Shirish is going to leave me
before the wedding when I was like...
But I think that's the sign of a good marriage.
Yeah.
Pass out before the marriage. - Show it before the marriage.
So you don't know what's in store after that.
Malla, like I was saying
because I'm so protective about you.
I was hyper when I heard about your accident
because I was in New York. - I know you were in New York.
You were traveling.
And I came to know a day later
and I was like...
I don't think there's anything in my life that
must've shook me up like the way
that moment and that instant and what happened.
I was pretty badly banged up actually.
Now when somebody looks at me, they say,
'Oh my God! Where? What? Can't see anything.'
But I think that's what life is all about.
I have a lot of scars on me.
Some emotional, some mental, some physical,
but the one thing that this entire episode actually taught me was
that life is very short.
Make the most of it.
What happened? He went to sleep on the wheel?
Can you imagine it was a stationary car?
A bus full of people came and he lost his control
and he rammed into my car.
I.. In that moment,
I thought I was disfigured.
I thought I've lost my sight at that moment
because I couldn't see anything - Oh my God!
for those couple of hours.
I couldn't because there was so...
For hours?
Yeah.
There was so much of glass shard in my eye, and...
And there was blood. So, I couldn't see.
For me, in that moment, I genuinely thought that
I don't think I will survive
and I may not see Arhaan again.
Shit!
I was taken to hospital.
Surgery happened, etc.
But when I was wheeled out,
one of the first faces that I saw was actually Arbaaz, at that moment.
And he kept asking me...
'Can you see? How many numbers? How many fingers?'
And I was like, why is doing this?
It was very strange. For a second I was like, okay,
have I gone back in time?
Something that really sticks out is
in difficult times, you know that
irrespective, whatever it may be,
past, present, future, whatever it is...
the way he was there.
So Malla, now that we are chatting honestly,
how do you deal when they talk about your relationship?
How do I deal?
Yeah. Because see, I have also been through it.
You are also married to a younger man...
Eight years younger. - Yeah.
You've faced your fair share of enough of...
Of enough of... - Correct.
You know, 'What is she thinking?'
And that typical older woman syndrome.
One friend of mine, when I was getting married,
someone asked him, 'Are you attending Farah's wedding?'
And he said, 'No. But I'll attend the second one.'
I thought that was quite bitchy.
Okay.
Not this one, but I'll attend
the next one. - The next one.
When you go through this on a daily basis,
so how do you deal with it?
It's not been easy.
And I face a lot of it on a daily basis,
this whole thing about older woman, you know...
Which is a double standards of
epic proportions. - Because of a man!
A man on the other hand dating
20 year-old, 30 year-old younger woman is applauded.
He's made to feel that he is
He is the next... - King of the world.
King of the world. He is here to rule.
Whereas we are cougars. - Whereas a woman doing it
we are cougars, we are this and that,
opportunist, cradle-snatchers. - Cradle-snatchers.
Mother-son.
So yes, Farah. It is there every single day.
And let me tell you, a lot of it, I've also got
from my own near and dear ones.
Forget the... - They are always the ones
Forget the ones who are out...
The outer circle of whatever, because at the end of the day
they are just privy to a ringside view.
They don't know what's going on
actually in the heart and core of things.
But when your near and dear ones
have a take, and when they say things,
and when they are the ones who are like,
'What is she thinking and why is she going through this
and you know, what's going on.'
But is it worth it, finally at the end of it?
That is, when I think, probably, it hurt...
If anything, that is what hurt me the most.
Living in the industry for so long,
being in the public eye,
getting regularly judged upon by people who you don't know,
sometimes by your best friends
and your inner circle,
of course, you'll protect yourself,
and you will guard yourself.
Everybody is a bit guarded here.
But Malaika, to begin with, was always a private person.
There's a privacy line that you do not cross with her.
But I can today sit down and say,
every single decision that I made in my life
has been completely worth it.
Has been completely worth it to where I am today.
I don't know what the future holds for me.
But you must be having some plan, right?
Malla, like, do you want to have kids?
More kids?
You want to get married again?
Farah, these are things which are all very...
Very hypothetical.
But not anymore now, Malla.
These are things of course you discuss...
Yeah!
with your partner. Of course you discuss these things.
Do you feel insecure
ever that, 'Oh my God! what if I don't get married?'
'Or what if I...'
I don't feel insecure.
Just because I've been through a divorce
or I've been through something in life...
You're not bitter about it. - I'm not bitter.
I have a lot to give
and I feel I'm a better person in a relationship.
Whatever choices or whatever decisions I have made,
I've made it purely because I wanted to be happy
and at the end of the day,
this man in my life makes me happy.
So, I think... - Yeah, I can...
Whatever else the world says, whatever they feel...
I don't care.
Literally I don't care.
I'm a hardcore romantic.
I just want to be able to be in a relationship
where I can make my partner happy
and where we can be happy together,
and where we can actually grow together
and enjoy life together.
He makes me happy. He's my friend. He's my...
My biggest critic. - Yeah.
He's my partner, whatever!
And I think you make him very happy also.
See, I would hope.
But it's not easy for him also.
It's not easy for anyone. - Of course, for anybody.
Anybody.
It's not easy for Arbaaz. I'm sure it was hard for Arhaan.
Of course, it was. I mean, come on!
I mean, at the end of the day,
I got married very early I feel.
Very young. - Very early.
I wanted to get married because
I just wanted to get out of the house, Farah.
Really? - Yeah!
Farah, believe it or not, I'm the one who proposed.
What?
Now this is something new...
Nobody knows that. I proposed.
It was not Arbaaz who proposed to me,
it was the other way round.
I actually said, 'You know what?'
'I want to get married. Are you ready?'
And very sweetly actually he just turned around and told me,
'You pick the day and the place.'
Arbaaz is my sweetheart. - He said that.
I know how much you love him
and he's a wonderful person.
I love Arbaaz dearly. He's one of the nicest people
on this planet earth.
Both of them have been extremely, I mean,
not once have either of them said you can't talk to the other,
not at all.
You got a very good husband who let you work...
Of course, he let me be! He let me be the person I...
I am today. - He used to get lot of flak for
what you used to wear and what you used to...
One second. I feel
a lot of me that I am today
is also because of him because he let me be the person I am.
I mean...
When you grow older... - We drifted.
We were too... I was very young.
Of course.
And I think I also changed.
I also wanted different things in life.
Somewhere I felt, that was missing in my space
and I needed to move on.
I felt the only way I could to do that
is if I could actually,
probably let go of certain ties.
And I think today, we're better people.
I think so. He is also happy. - We love and respect
each other for the people that we are.
We have a child together.
So that is something that will never ever change.
But I feel we are far better people.
Then, I think we very...
very irritable.
Towards the end. - Yeah.
Very irritable people. We became very...
angry, negative people.
Till 'Dabangg' you'll were fine. - Yeah.
You know, then I also saw the difference.
Farah, I also remember, very few people actually said that to me.
You, Karan. Very few people actually said that to me.
They actually turned around and said,
'You know what? Irrespective, we love you.'
That is true.
Whatever the situation may be, whatever it may be,
we love you!
Yeah, but we love you. - I will never forget that.
I think I will always...
I feel happy. - Yeah.
Oh! My baby!
Listen, we love you. You know that!
You know that.
Of course, I know that!
Well, I got a little emotional.
I guess because she's a friend and she knows me.
The kind of things that she brought up, and what she said,
it just touched a chord.
It touched a nerve somewhere which just got me a little emotional.
Weirdly, I still feel a little heavy after that, strangely.
Is my makeup fine? - Yeah.
You look beautiful while crying also, bitch!
Farah AKA bitch!
Too much of history between us.
I've seen us live in tiny little homes.
And then move on in life to actually be able to
afford our own homes, eventually.
So, we've seen that entire journey.
We bond over food, we bond over games.
We bond over...
gossip sometimes.
Are you ready to move in with me? - I am ready!
I was ready many years ago.
When I told you to move on top of the train with me
and you were shivering.
Can you imagine?
You have danced on top of a moving train,
and you were in a stationary car and almost died.
Can you imagine? That is...
The irony of it. - The irony of life!
But Farah... - It was life changing.
Life changing and iconic to another level.
And I think...
You are the 'Chaiyya Chaiyya' girl now.
And I still am.
I think that is something that will never...
that will never go away,
and I don't ever want it to go away.
I think I'm very proud of it.
Having said that, have you seen Nora's reel on Chaiyya Chaiyya?
No, I haven't seen it. I haven't.
I must see it. I'll catch it later.
But I think that's a great tribute to the song.
You are still looking as young as Nora.
If not younger.
Younger. I was going to say, but I know you will...
You'll praise your own self.
But luckily for you, some five heroines refused to
climb on top of the train.
And they call me regularly and say,
'Oh shit! We wish we had done that song!'
Should I give a speech and thank those heroines?
You must thank them.
Malaika was nowhere on the radar.
We had approached Shilpa Shetty.
We had approached Shilpa Shirodkar.
We had approached 2-3 other people.
One had a phobia of climbing on the train.
One was not available.
And then makeup artist said
that Malaika is actually a very good dancer.
But she climbed on the train.
We were completely clueless whether she would pull it off or not,
but rest as we know is history.
You'll didn't let me rehearse.
You'll didn't let me put makeup.
You don't need makeup!
But I remember you'll said, 'No makeup! No makeup!'
Because Mani sir doesn't like makeup.
You just kohl... - Kohl and oil.
Yeah.
He put baby oil.
I was burned in this.
We used to all come back with coals in our hair and nose.
But diamonds are made from coals.
Pressure makes diamonds.
But what about the pressure that I'm under?
I'm under immense pressure!
Would I be a diamond by the end of it?
You are already a diamond.
Just like the ones you are wearing. - Remember...
Always buy natural diamonds.
Diamonds are a girl's best friend.
So, go splurge, buy natural diamonds.
Also, every year,
buy some. Just buy that one diamond.
I'm telling the people to buy it for me.
Okay, baby. I'll buy whatever you want.
My birthday is coming. 9th of January.
I'll give you whatever you want. - So sweet.
I'll give you these natural diamonds.
Would you like a ring, earrings, a pendant?
A priceless necklace. - Necklace.
No, no. I'll give you a nice pretty little solitaire thing.
Personally, I think she has changed a lot.
She was a very young girl when she got married.
Very young mother.
She does what she wants to do,
what makes her happy,
what makes her family happy.
Secondly, I think first you have to be happy within you
to make anyone else happy and I think she has mastered its art.
Thank you so much for indulging me today.
See you soon. I wish you all the best.
Come home more often. You can move in with me.
Moving in with Malaika. Yeah!
Now everybody will have access into your personal life.
So, I'm happy because
I want them to see you as you are,
which is a good Malaika.
What do you mean which is a good Malaika?
Not the bitchy Malaika that everyone thinks.
Bye, Farah! See you! - Bye. See you!
Thank you so much. - Bye. Love you.
Bye. I love you. - Bye. See you.
She's gone now.
Farah has gone.
Come on, let's go.
What!
Who's come?
My cooker.
My best...
Malla, my cooker! - Bye!
How are you feeling?
Good. It was lovely. - I wanted to check.
Now you've come with some loaded notes. - I have full. Yeah.
You can see my book, right?
It's been 8 years now
that Ekta has been with me ever since she started work
at my Management firm.
And let me tell you, if there's one person who's probably
been witnessed to a lot of things
in my life, it's Ekta.
And she is the keeper of my secrets.
I wanted to check on the script that you are dodging.
There's a reason why I am dodging.
I'm waiting for that first.
What? - Malaika, they are calling.
What has to be done?
I've to read it? - Comedy script.
It's a comedy script. - Yeah.
Do I have to hear or watch it? I don't know. - You didn't read it.
I've not read it. You know that. I've been...
I'm not dodging it.
But I'm not...
I'm just not sure, Ekta. I don't know. I feel
a bit... - So,
do you want to meet them and see?
Like how you feel about it?
And do what?
As in?
I know you'll come to the same point
that acting fear that you'll bring up later on.
I know. - It's not acting fear.
It's not that. It's just the fact...
Fear of dialogues.
Okay. I get it. - I'm not comfortable with
mouthing dialogues or saying all of it.
You know, standing up in front of people and actually
be comfortable about... - Yeah.
about emoting with dialogues.
Yeah. - I'm a little...
I'm always a little apprehensive. - I know.
I feel a little nervous about it. So...
So that's probably why I shy away from it or I stay away from it.
But okay. I'll hear them out. If there is something.
We should. I think we should give it a try.
It'll be done. I feel.
Let's do that.
Over the years, there have been loads of scripts
that I have seen and read.
But somehow, I've always stayed away. I don't know...
Well, that's another fear of mine.
I think I was the same in school.
I hated when I had to mug something.
I thought it was just the most daunting task.
I felt it was just too much pressure.
I would be uneasy or keep running to the loo.
All of that. I wouldn't be able to eat or sleep
if I had to learn something and I had to say it.
So, I think that fear of mine has been there.
Second thing,
I'll send you tomorrow's call time and location.
But what's happening tomorrow?
I sent you the creatives for our car reel.
No.
You said we will get back, we will let you know.
There are a lot things that need to be tweaked in it.
That I've done!
It was not finalized.
Now you're telling me tomorrow we have to start shooting for it.
I was not prepared for that.
I'll give you the revised script that has come. You need to
drive the car, which I told you in our chat also.
It's not a lot. Just 30 seconds.
But why can't they just have somebody drive it?
Why this thing of wanting me...
We are required to do that. That's the...
That's the main part of the script.
I'm a little unsure.
I don't know. - Yeah.
Me being behind the wheel and driving...
I'm still not ready.
Forget anything, I'm just not ready. I've not...
I've not done it in the last couple of months.
I am in two minds where I do want to say
no to do this commercial. I probably don't want to.
I rather not do it
than put myself through something like that.
Well, today is a new day.
I was actually looking forward to the day.
Purely because a part of me wanted to
overcome some of my fears.
So, here I am!
Drive slow.
I mean, it was an unnerving sound
because it was just cars
zooming and zipping in full speed.
I was like, 'Where the hell am I?'
'Why the hell am I here?'
I just had this dirty sinking feeling
that this is not safe.
My life is in your hands.
Okay. Let's do this. - Okay.
I don't know how I'm going to do it. I don't know how.
But at the same time, I feel
I should get over that fear.
I should challenge myself and take it head on.
So, I'm a little conflicted about that. I don't know.
I can do this then? - Yeah.
You have to break the glass now.
There will be a huge glass,
you have to drive through it.
What? - Yes. That's the stunt.
Are you sure? - Yes. 100 percent.
Ekta!
What happened?
Are you even aware what he's saying?
What happened now?
He's saying I'll have to do some stunt.
I have to go drive through a goddam glass.
I'll speak. One second.
I'll take you to the van.
But you can't say 'I'll speak' for everything!
He's saying I have to drive through some glass and go.
No, I'll check with the director.
We weren't informed about it.
They can't keep doing these stupid things
and playing mind games with me.
It's a bit of a f**k up! I'm sorry.
You cannot do that to anybody.
Go slow!
That's enough!
I think these are the kind of comic topics we should explore.
Single mother.
Divorce.
Dating a younger guy.
We should call it 'Milf'.
No, I'm not interested.
You have to do it.