Malla, I was hyper when I heard about your accident.
In that moment,
I thought I was disfigured.
I thought I've lost my sight at that moment.
Oh my God! -I couldn't see anything
for those couple of hours.
I couldn't because... -For hours?
Yeah.
I'll send you tomorrow's call time and location.
But what's happening tomorrow?
You need to drive the car, which I told you...
No!
You said we will get back, we will let you know.
There are a lot of things that need to be tweaked in it.
Now you're telling me tomorrow we have to start shooting for it.
I was not prepared for that.
Forget anything, I'm just not ready. I've not...
I've not done it in the last couple of months.
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Well, today is a new day.
There's always something to look forward to.
I mean, I had to shoot something interesting.
Probably, to be driving.
A part of me is going to be able to deal
with that part of my fears head on.
But I feel that
I should try it out.
So here I am. I've entered my shoot.
It was this huge and empty warehouse.
I went there, it was dark. Very dingy lit.
Take it easy.
It was a little scary, a little strange.
I walked there, and I got hit by this...
I mean, it was an unnerving sound.
Lights!
It was insane.
I was like, 'What the hell!'
I am 47 years old and...
I am my own biggest cheerleader.
It was professional commitment,
and an emotional upheaval that I was dealing with.
I was conflicted.
My life is in your hands.
All set, sir.
I've put it on the first gear.
I've released the clutch. The car is in motion.
I'll take it slowly...
Hold on, take it easy!
That's enough!
I can't do all this! I can't do it!
That moment my heart was in my mouth.
It was thumping, it was racing.
I don't like speed. I'm not comfortable with it.
I don't like it.
And now my fear of speed has heightened even more.
I could have pushed him out of that car in that moment.
I could've said, get out.
You danced on the train.
That was so risky, this is nothing compared to that.
Even then, I have a fear.
Yes. But you have to overcome your fear, right?
I want to overcome my fear. But I'm still nervous.
You have to trust me. -I feel I'm losing trust in people.
25 years back, on top of a moving train,
and 25 years later, only thing I can actually
make a connect was,
it was a blur then, it's a blur now.
The car is in neutral gear. I've pulled the handbrake.
I'm getting off now.
I haven't sat in a driver's seat for so long.
For what? Six months maybe, I have not sat behind the wheel.
I mean, all that was going through my head was,
'Will I be able to do this? Will I be able to conquer my fears?'
Will I be able to do this task at hand?
Yeah. Slowly.
Straight. We have to go straight.
Yes, yes. Perfect. Very good.
Very good. Keep going straight.
Yes. We're done.
So easy.
Should I accelerate? -Yes, why not? Go ahead.
And once I actually shifted those gears,
it felt like I was shifting the gears of my life, you know.
It all seemed a little surreal.
Very nice.
Done. Simple.
Okay.
You drove well.
I can do this then? -Yeah.
This is all? -You can even drive faster.
This is all we have to do? -No, this is not all.
You have to break a glass now.
There will be a huge glass, you have to drive through it.
-What? -Yes. That's the stunt.
-What? -You have to break it. Yes.
-Are you sure? -Yes. 100 percent.
Breaking into a glass.
-That's why I'm here, to teach you. -Ekta!
What happened?
Are you even aware what he's saying?
What happened now?
He's saying I'll have to do some stunt.
I have to go drive through a goddam glass.
I'll speak. One second.
I'll take you to the van.
But you can't say 'I'll speak' for everything!
I'll check.
He's saying I have to drive through some glass and go.
I'll check with the director.
We weren't informed about it. I'll check.
I just had this dirty, sinking feeling that
this is not safe, that this is just not
what I signed up for.
And I felt everything is going to go wrong.
They can't keep doing these stupid things
and playing mind games with me.
It's a bit of a fuck up! I'm sorry.
You cannot do that to anybody.
I wanted to just hide in that van, for a bit, because, I was like,
I don't want to deal with this. I don't want to see this.
It just brought back too many memories
in that moment. This is it!
I need to pull the plug on this,
and I need to go home.
So, I spoke to those guys.
It's a last-minute addition that they did.
No!
I don't want to do it.
I'm not going to do it.
Malaika, all the safety measures are taken.
That driver is also... -No, I'm not doing it.
Yes. I want to overcome my fear,
but not at the cost of risking my life again.
Nothing is worth it.
But creatively, it's fitting in the video.
-That's why they want to... -No.
Creatively I'm sure, it must be really fitting for them!
I'm sure they must be loving every bit of it.
And that's exactly what they want.
I ain't doing it!
She was trying to make it seem all very cool and casual,
maybe she should try doing the stunt instead.
Why would she constantly throw me under the bus?
Okay. You know what?
I'll step out. I'll give you 5 minutes.
I'll come back.
Raju, take a look.
Fuck these people, man.
I don't know why the hell can she never answer her phone.
She's so annoying.
-Yes. -What's up?
What's happening?
No, no. I was just like...
pissed off and irritated, and whatever.
I told you I have to shoot this commercial for this
energy bar in a car.
Yes. You mentioned.
You know the stunt is me driving through that glass.
But wasn't it a part of the script?
No, Ammu! It wasn't!
They just sprung it on me!
Like 30 seconds back!
I can't take it. I can't hack that fear again of
being in a car, doing the stunt.
I am petrified of it as well.
Listen to me. Listen.
We know the hell you've been through.
But I feel it's like a probable divine intervention of sorts
that you've been faced with a situation
where you're probably
facing your worst fear of the given moment.
And in the moment, you have a chance
to literally grab it by the lemons
and get on with it.
So, you're also conquering the fear that's
been instilled in you because of what happened.
And you're also going ahead with the Malaika
who has always taken a risk and
crowd through any tough situation head on.
Not head on literally. Otherwise...
Thanks. Thanks.
We'll have another scar in the situation.
Thanks, Ammu. Really needed to hear that.
Thanks for making light of every situation.
Do it! Do it! Do it!
You can thank me later.
Cheque is in the mail.
Okay, thank you.
I'm glad I spoke to you and maybe I needed to hear that.
-Okay. Bye. -Bye.
Okay.
Well, all I can say is that
I have got a second chance at life.
Raju, bring the car! Master!
You have one life. Make the most of it.
Live it to the fullest.
I'm going to do this.
It was a switch.
It just turned on.
And that's it.
You can do this. You've got this, girl!
Okay. Let's do this.
That moment when I walked out of the van
straight towards where the action was,
I don't know, in that moment,
I felt like the bravest person.
I said, I can do this.
Copy! Copy! Copy!
Nishant, whenever you're ready.
Rolling, sir!
Malaika, are you ready?
My intention is to get rid of all my fears!
Roll, please!
Rolling!
And action!
I heard the director say action...
and I just drove!
Fuck!
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
Good shot, Malaika. Got it!
Done?
Done.
I did it!
I felt like I had wings.
I felt like I couldn't feel my legs.
I couldn't feel my feet.
-Done! Done! -Good job!
-It's done. -It's done!
Fuck, it's done!
It's done. Oh yeah!
-It was clean? -Yeah.
Absolutely. I got my shot.
We got our shot.
Thank you, everyone.
That glass felt like I was breaking through my fears.
Crushing my fears. That's more like it.
I crushed my fears.
Fear is very temporary.
Sometimes, some of these fears are also self-manifested.
And I think you can win over these fears.
You can actually beat and kill these fears.
I feel I can take on anything. You know...
Throw anything my way and I am...
I'm good to go.
I can take it on.
Wow! It's a new day.
I feel strong, I feel fierce, I feel...
like I can take on the world.
There's nothing right now that can stop me.
That's literally how I feel.
Fuck!
I've just managed to face one fear of mine,
of my bucket list literally.
But barely have I faced one,
there's another challenge that I have to face.
Time now for me to get ready for this narration.
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And I'm on my way to meet Farhad Samji.
We worked earlier on Housefull.
-Hello! How are you? -Hello!
Long-time no see.
Very very long. How have you been?
I've been good.
-Good to see you. Please sit. -Lovely to see you.
It was wonderful to see him actually.
He's always smiling and has this very nice happy demeanour about him.
So, I'm very concerned about what are we going to do.
What is it?
Malaika, you must be aware, that lately in films,
unique content works better than good content.
Something different is more effective.
So, I'll just get into the narration straight away.
-Let's do this. -Yeah.
The film is about this young girl.
She's a very middle-class girl,
who has been raised in a cultural and traditional background.
But she's very 'badboli'.
If you know the meaning of 'Badboli'. She's a babbler.
This is a 100-page script
wherein you'll be speaking for 90 pages.
-I have to recite dialogues? -Yes.
90 pages purely mine.
I wanted to take a gun and blow my brains out over there.
I was like, 'No, I can't do this.'
Is this a script or encyclopaedia?
This girl is so fond of Hindi that she hates English.
Even if anyone utters a word in English,
she interrupts them.
If anyone says, 'traffic signal'.
'Avak javak suchak jhanda'.
That's the translation
or the literal... Yeah. -For actually...
We never use in our daily lives.
-Of traffic signal? -Yes.
Take mosquito for example, she won't call it 'macchar'.
She'll call it, 'Rakt pipasu chusam chati jeev'.
-No way! -Yes.
It will take me 30 years to learn this.
So, this is the what the character...
-...is all about. -My hair will turn grey
if I have to try to learn all of these words.
I just kept thinking in my head, 'No, can't, cannot.'
I think those are the only words that were going through my head.
I'll come to the story now.
She has a dream of being a stand-up comedian.
Once she's an adult, she keeps watching stand-up acts.
And she gets fascinated because she is a very good talker.
Now she wants to be a stand-up comedian.
This will be a little shocker for you.
This is the character which I'm thinking about you.
But that is what the challenge is, for me as well as you.
And I was like, 'Darn! Stand-up!'
This is like my worst nightmare.
Literally my worst nightmare.
It doesn't end there.
And then, out of nowhere...
Now you play your biggest card, that is a rap.
You sing a song which becomes viral on the net.
Now, I'll just make you hear the song also.
Farhad, you've come totally prepared.
-I mean, you'll full of passion. -Okay.
"Waku Waku Waka, I am Malaika."
"Your in-laws' home is my parents' home!"
"I shake my body like a Sheikh of Dubai!"
"People gossip about me from Jaipur to Jamaica."
"I'm not only brave, but beautiful!"
"Waku Waku Waka, I am Malaika."
-Oh my God! -So, it goes viral.
"Waku Waku Waka, I am Malaika."
"Waku Waku Waka..." -You've got it.
-I like that! -Lovely.
So, this is the structure.
And you have two choices, to say yes or yes.
Tell me.
I mean, you have put me in a difficult situation.
-Say 'mushkil'. -Extremely...
Fine, as per the character,
you've put me in a difficult situation.
Can I think about it, sir?
Please.
Take your time.
But this is something which I wanted to bounce you from such a long time.
Yeah.
There are two things that definitely stood out for me.
One is, it is pure Hindi.
That in itself is a real challenge.
The other thing he said was that the main girl, the protagonist,
is a stand-up comic. I don't know why
like a bulb went off in my head.
It's quite interesting. I mean,
it's a challenge I think.
Okay, sir. Thank you so much.
-Give me some time. -Yes.
Fine, done.
-That's all. -Done.
Thank you.
-Lovely. -Thank you, sir.
Bye.
Done with the narration.
I'm in two minds.
I don't know. Yes, no or maybe.
I thought maybe I should, you know, probably,
speak to a friend of mine and get someone else's perspective.
Malla!
-Hey, Neh! How are you doing, girl? -Hi!
What I like about is her is that she's very outspoken.
She says whatever is on her mind.
And I think maybe right now,
I need to speak to somebody who can actually
-tell me that. -What's happening?
Where are you coming from?
You know...
I've had a rather strange day, let me tell you.
Rather... I don't know how to put it.
When do you not have a strange day?
I always feel that every time I see you,
there's a story that's going to happen.
Are you serious?
Something will happen.
Do you think drama follows me and surrounds me at all times?
I feel like there's calm, and then there's a storm.
So, the storm is around me, while I'm a picture of calm.
But sometimes you are also quite stormy, I have to say.
I have to.
If I'm not stormy, then how the hell am I supposed to survive.
And how the hell are you going to have a reality show then?
Firstly, what have you signed up for?
What's going on?
What is it that you haven't tried or dabbled in?
Because I feel you've also done so much.
Yeah. So, that's probably why
I felt I needed to do something completely out of my comfort zone.
Which is what?
Firstly, I have a feeling
there's going to be a bomb that's getting dropped here.
Please, tell me. Okay. Go ahead.
I mean, I have this whole thing about,
you know, films, you've been part of it.
I've never really done a full-fledged film, so to speak.
Never.
Yeah. I've never ever done that.
I'm not laughing, but are you doing a movie?
-I'll slap you! -Because you'll be great at it!
No! So, I've never done that.
I've always been a little unsure about things.
Should I? Shouldn't I?
You know, it's not like 'one door closes and another one opens'.
Keep all doors open.
That's what she is doing right now.
It's great.
But, you know, she shouldn't be overwhelmed with
so many things that are going on.
There's a lovely director. He said, okay,
let me give you a narration.
You tell me what you feel.
Here me out.
I heard him out.
I was...
Forget scared, I was shocked.
I didn't know how to react.
Was the narration so bad?
No, no. He was very good.
His narration was very good.
But I just didn't see myself in that space.
I was talking to Ammu. Ammu said,
'Hear it once, See what it leads to.'
Why are you taking Ammu's suggestion?
She's my sister!
I know that. We love Ammu.
But every suggestion of Ammu... -I love Ammu.
...needs to be run by or franked by another human being.
Okay.
You have enough actor-friends in your life.
-Of course, I'm not saying no. -Why didn't you call Arjun?
Of course, I can call him.
Why didn't you call Arjun for advice?
Ammu is lovely, but she worked 15 years ago.
Arjun is a bona fide star who's working in a movie, Malla.
True. Actually I never thought of it.
Why?
Why would you not think of Arjun Kapoor? Like...
I love Ammu and I would seek
advice on everything from Ammu.
But when it comes to acting, she's not been in touch.
She's left the craft a few years ago.
And here you have Arjun, who is in your life,
who can give you advice on acting.
And I meant it in the best way possible.
I would've thought that, you know, it's Malla,
so, she's smart enough to pick up the phone and call Arjun.
So that's all that I said.
Specifically, now you're talking about acting,
maybe I should've spoken to him.
But I don't know why I turned to Ammu at the moment.
But it's fine. Maybe now, in the next...
In part 2...
I have a feeling that they'll be no next.
When the film comes in another part, I'll probably ask him then.
So, you're doing the film?
No, when she said something in the conversation
because she heard that I was rather flustered.
She said why don't you think about
doing some sort of comedy.
Do some sort of stand-up.
She said that and I was like,
'Actually, you know, maybe there is something to it.'
I spoke to Ekta, I spoke to my team,
I said listen,
What if I have to do stand-up
or do something in the comic space?
And, I know, never done it.
Don't even know the ins and outs of it.
Don't know what goes into it.
But I said, you know what...
And when you throw a challenge at me,
I may... I don't know. I feel
I need to then take it head on.
But I don't know!
I don't know. You tell me.
I understand she wants to challenge herself.
She wants to do so much.
But she's also very guarded as a person.
And the thing about stand-up comedy is that
you really have to push the boundary.
I'll tell you, Malla.
I've done a little bit of stand-up, not too much. A little bit.
-And, it... -Did you suck at it?
I was actually, like,
I really thought it was one of the hardest things
and I did make an auditorium full of people laugh because
90 percent of the jokes were on myself.
Are you willing to do that?
She's not somebody to mince her words.
She'll say it the way it is.
But I didn't quite expect her to
completely discourage me at a go.
Are you willing to crack a joke on yourself?
Are you willing you to, like, continue with multiple monologues
of self-deprecating humour?
Are you willing to crack jokes on people who are close to you?
Are you willing to crack jokes on... Okay.
Let's try this.
Don't ask me to crack a joke.
I'm not going to tell you to crack a joke.
It's not funny.
I was really looking for that encouragement, for that
extra push over there.
I mean, honestly, it just left me discouraged.
People will want to know more about
things that have happened in your past,
or relationships,
and sometimes you don't want to talk about them.
I feel like it's just sacred to you.
I feel those things may break her.
If you had to take the series of your life
and take the seriousness out of it...
I mean, the beats of your life to a point
can be converted into, you know,
-one... -Stand-up?
You can have a laugh at it.
Like, crack a joke on Arjun.
Crack a joke in one second.
There are funny things about him.
There are funny things about you.
I can see you're getting a sinking feeling.
Crack a joke.
You have to speak about things
that the audience is thinking about you.
Single mother.
I would shit bricks if I had to do this.
Divorce.
It's madness.
Dating a younger guy.
Will she be able to do it was the next question.
You have to do it.
Oh my God!
I'm a mother, I'm a daughter but to the world...
I'm divorced.
I mean, I've moved on
My ex has moved on
When the “ F ” will all of you move on